. i love baby veggiebrainer .

cls position.

2005-05-28T12:28:00.000+08:00

fcuk. i got 7/39 position in class. damn! i aimed beyond 7th position, at least a 6th position in class. amy got 6th in position and just 0.5 marks away from mine. i should blame myself man. gawd. lijia got the same position as me. hais. ms wong is leaving. she gave me a gifts for being a monitress for the past 5 months. then the upcoming form teacher is mdm lam. holy shit. why!! yaddas. accept the fact lah. the hols schedule dont have humans! dang. i want humans classes badly. i wanna improve on my humans. n2's timetable schedule 1 session of ss yet n1 dont even have a single session. wtf! fine.. after hols we still have to catch up what mdm tang has taught during the hols to n2. hais. n1 suppose to be a better class(not saying n2 was bad), yet..

went to SAF concert ytd nite with reg. crap loads on the way to VCH. yeahs. saw mr chew. got the tickets and went in. the concert was great except for the last piece, gawd, 43mins long. their dynamics were superb. saw derry there. was a lil angry when he dint got the tickets for me. ah. i miss band. i miss my bass clarinet. how? gotta study hard man.

got a cadbury hazenut choc from mom ytd. dang. put on weight alr. ha. gonna fast man. duh.

shopping.

2005-05-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

went back to school again. the atmosphere was so dead. post exam activity was crapped. sec4s still have to study. cannot blame. we are band2 school. boohoo. from tml onwards got f&n intensive classes.

i got the white form! yayness! that means my parents dont have to see any of the teachers. woohoo. i'm so proud of myself. ha. got 7 points for my mye. aiming for 4 points. i can do it! i shall make it happen. =D f&n was crap too. mrs lee keep on yaya. what the hell man! we have to rest after mye right? we are human yea. gonna pia f&n yea.

went shopping with liting. yeah. went to goldenmile again. on the way was hilarious. remember the cadbury advertisement, '... ... wouldnt it be nice?' we kept singing this phrase. we sang oldies songs too. stopped at this flyover. crapped about the signboard. i'm a indecisive person. changed my sneakers twice. dang! then went to shop around. bought a top and a shorts. very nice wors. then went to have desserts. yummy. then we went to ps. shopped again. was quite tiring, thats why today dint went to run. reached home, took a bath and went to take a nap. *yawns.

happy 5th monthsary baby! =)

my sweet surrend

2005-05-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

yayness. i'm in love! in love with my babyboy. =D

2 days ago..

went out shopping. bought lotsa stuffs. went to meet my babyboy after shopping. he looks like a red crabbie. my sweet red crabbie. heh. went to swensen to have dessert. had apple crumble. woots. very nice. after that went to istana park. went home after that.

yesterday..

went out with my babyboy. went to cineleisure for movie. watched kingdom of heaven. quite nice, only for the 2nd part of the movie. heh. went to queensway to look for his tria-shoes. quite disappointing lahs. dont haf his size. so yeah. went back to ps to get the shoes. yayness. got the shoes. the colour of the shoes is very bright. heh. very light too. oolala. went around park mall. found some place to makan for next time's outing. yups. went home after that. =)

today..

went to malaysia for breakfast. yummy. den went home. watched tv. online. sleep. went to run again! love the feeling of sweating. gonna iron my sch u alr. adieous. =D

wouldnt it be nice?

*mysweetsurrender

fri.

2005-05-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

friday! oolala. wkends, here i come.

calculated my L1R5. quite disappointing lahs. here's my aim for prelims.

eng - B3
chinese - A1
comb. sciences - A2
comb. humans - B4
accounts - A1
f&n - A2
maths - A2

with this scores, my L1R5 will be 13. L1R4 will be 12. with this score.. i can make it to BMS in NP and JC. ha. well well. i'm having dreams yea. let me be free! let me dream! ha.

going shopping tml again! oolala.

band resumes today. went back. saw my lil jnr. ha. had mini celebration. quite disappointing lahs. most of the sec 4s did not turn up.

gonna watch tv. tatas. =)

results.

2005-05-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

well. quite depressed with results. fcuk this shit. i got a bloody pathetic c5 for my maths! how can it be! dammit lahs. i lowered my expectation for my maths till b4 alr! fcuk lahs. why why why?! x
channel 8's 9pm show was hilarious. damn. the contrast between the a person's present life and a person's life after entered the netherworld.

going suntan with liting during the hols! anyone got strawmat to borrow? lol. hunting for bikinis. well. i saw one at bugis alr. damn nice. but.. i still find the roxy's bikini is nicer. lalala.

gonna have long weekends again. damn bored. but will be occupied with loved ones. woolala.

baby oh baby. i miss you like crazy. you are the reason that i live for. heh. *SMOOCHIES! =)

orals.

2005-05-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

here i go.. scream my lungs out and try to get you..

had orals earlier this morning. finished both orals at 9. so yeahs. waited for yiling to finish her orals. meanwhile, went to find mdm chok as she instructed me to see her. while walking to the staffrm, i was thinking if she gonna give back my maths p2. ha. well well. she gave me a cd. a cd that contains the pictures of the cip. it goes without saying that i have to edit photos for her. ha. well. accepted this task. went to the kopitiam somewhere near the bb interchange. ordered a plate of nasi lemak. went home after my brunch. laze around after i reached home. couldnt really recall what had happened. perhaps i'm really suffering from dementia. ha. who knows. god knows! yeah. hmmm. went to take a nap at 12. woke up around 2. realised that i'm sweating profusely as i dint switched on the air-con. save energy mah! lol. yups. baby smsed me and i replied to him. he dint replied me till not long ago. yahdahs. went online and edit those pic. was rather hilarious. so dont blame me peeps! lalala.

gonna get back my results tml. dang! mentally prepared for maths but not the rest lahs. lets see.. comb humans cfm cmi. i lost hope in comb humans. anybody can teach me how to find the source of light in comb humans?

i miss my babyboy! =)

dear.

2005-05-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

sch-less day 1. felt so terrible yea. woke up at 1130. eve jie called me to go swimming. but no sun, cannot swim. well.. what i mean is, there is no sun, how to tan? ha. so.. stoned at home. whole day only eat the macadamia fudge brownies which i bought ytd at wisma. played gameboy sp's mahjong. won quite a no. of times. pro alr. lalala. =)

watched tv till 1410. then went to bathe. doll up myself and went to meet my babyboy. hmmm. i took my own sweet time to travel to his area as time was still early. reached tp interchange. got 2 surveyor approached me. dang! 1st surveyor, 'are you satisfied with your face complexion?' bloody hell. of cuz i do! nobody is perfect kaes! 2nd surveyor, 'are you still schling? what sch are you from? you intend to go poly/jc after your o's, and why?' so many questions. how am i supposed to answer first? ha. well. grab a teens and waited for bus 73 at the bus lane. i calculated the timing to reached his school bus stop. just nice when the bus reached his sch bus stop. but.. sad to say, he still walking to the bus stop as i could see him still at the opposite of the bus stop. well. he missed the bus. it will be better if he caught the bus i took. reached his house bus stop and waited for him. waited quite long. around 15mins. yayness. finally saw him alight the bus. saw him with ny uni. very nice alr baby. then laze around his neighbourhood. he gonna get a new spects. woohoo. but he only wears contacts when he is out of his house. well. i realised that my baby's eyes are damn nice. sparkling bright. will get electrocuted anytime, anywhere. ha. i cant deny the fact that he's charming. *drools. he always makes me go lala. and make me sweat alr. ha. *smoochies. sent him off and i went off. i took a longer route to go home as i predict that nobody's home again. dang! stoned in front of the tv. no mood for dinner. just a cup of milk.

i wanna tan at sentosa tml. hopefully eve jie can make it. =)

i love my babyboy.

5th months to be.

slp.

2005-05-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

sleep-less night. darn energetic. maybe cuz i just finished bathing? the weather is getting hotter each and every day. supposed to be the pre-monsoon season, yet..

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

sugarcult's memory

this song is nice. one of my favourite. lalala.

went to town with vanessa, sheau jun and hanliang to get presents. after that went off to takashimaya's best denki to find eve jie. she's working. no break. couldnt chill with her. so went to famous amos. waited for shah. the bd girl. HAPPY BD SHAH! lalala. bought macadamia fudge brownies. darn the fcuking cashier. gonna lodge a complain to famous amos. hey! what's wrong of giving my discount card to enjoy a discount from famous amos? he uttered 'wahliew. why you gimme this card?' dammit. hey you! my working experience is so much better than you alr. the way he talked as if he has been working longer than me. if only i still working, i gonna screw him man. well, i think shah has screwed that guy as i reported about his behaviour towards customer. well. customers always right. gonna lodge a complain. x)

went home and take a rest. TNP BIG WALK is full. fcuk this shit. that means i cannot go to BIG WALK anymore. hais. =( told jiesheng. he's quite sad too. maybe today just wasnt my day. =(

talked to eve jie just now on phone. she said that i have changed, as well as adam. hais. i told them why i have changed yeah. it's bcuz of people around me. sometime i just feel like isolate myself. oh well well.. i'm not having depression now. just feel that life is always unfair alr. why cant i just have more happy moment than to have more depressing moment? sucidal might help. but i'm afraid to die. cuz i dont bear to leave my beloved ones. just like clement's thoughts. jamming do help. i wanna scream out loud. i will cry when i got back my results man. well. thats when my depression starts. pms also coming soon. depression + pms = double bomb. thats when i'm going nuts.

walking in the rain is good. CRYOUTLOUD!

im back.

2005-05-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

Matthew 28:18-20

then jesus came to them and said, ''all authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you. and surely i am with you always, to the very end of the age."

this verse was indeed meaningful.

today's entry will be ultra long.. bear with it man.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

avril lavigne's Nobody's Home

my parents are workaholics since i was young. i dint expect much companied by them then but i need it now desperately. as i grow older, i realised my parents are neglecting me. can you imagine that everyday once you stepped in the house, you faced the computer and your brother? nobody to communicate with? hais. i cried terribly on tues nite cuz of this incident when i was revising my chemistry. avril lavigne's Nobody's Home is playing on my com right now. hais. =(

i told mom how i felt. tears are swirling in my eyes right now. she was sad when i told her. but seriously. we could hardly communicate with each other everyday. she is too busy as well as my dad. after that.. she told me she gonna take a day leave just to accompany me. i told her i dont need her accompany cuz i'll be busy studing for mye. but still, she took the leave. yeap. i was glad. you know how happy i was? of cuz i dint revealed out to my mom. i felt so loved by my mom again. =) relationship between my dad and brother are getting better. i dont know why. i dont know how. perhaps its gameboy and computers that brought us closer. every now and then i will 'snatch' gameboy' with my dad. anyway. the gameboy sp which belongs to my brother gonna be mine once he got his ps2. relationship with my family are getting closer. i'm glad.

finally finished my mye. received both good news and bad news. i shall say the good news first. my chemistry passed with a B3. dammit. 1 more mark to A2! just 1 more mark. dang. was pretty frustrated about it. but. i shall be contented with the marks alr as i thought i gonna fail the paper cuz i freak out on my section a. i think my chinese did better than ca1. as according to mr tie. now. bad news. f&n flunk like crazy. its so difficult. why? dang. i just pass my maths p1. i cried. i have high hopes on maths yet i just passed only. dang. as according to mdm chok, lotsa ppl fail. highest was eng seng, 47/60. i expected 45 and above. maybe just that i wasnt that lucky. perhaps my maths p2 could save me? hold on.. i also wont be getting a pathetic A2 if i did very well for it. unless i could pass get full marks, which i dont think so, and i just managed to scrap through a A2. whats the use man. maybe B3/B4 is just my cup of tea. was darn sad. x( whole class failed physics. do you believe? well. i dont think so. certainly i hope mr lee was just kidding. and i hope that my physics paper can get 36 and above so that i could get a A2 for my comb science. yeah yeah. fat hope lahs. worse come to worse a B4. if i'm lucky, i will manage to scrap thru a B3. well. let's see. oh yah. ms tan gonna set a difficult paper for prelims as i complained that bbss paper was difficult. dang. thanks to my bloody mouth. well. be contented that i have such a great chem teacher. she's hot! my comb humans gone alr. gave up. mr koh said it was easy to mark. there's meaning behind those words. means we dint do well. accounts. i hope i could score well and get that A1. =)

i will be having a long wkends till wed. sch-less from tml onwards to wed. shiok man. gonna chiong pool tml mid-nite with yuhli at kpool. wahs. finally yuhli 6teen le. been waiting for thousand years man. heh. will be spending tml nite at RDA for charity function. i saw my white horse at RDA! ha.

not forgetting my baby. i love you baby. have not been communicating well due to mye. lets change for the better and not for the worse. *muacks. =)

i'm suffering from dementia. dang!

John 3:16

for god so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

obviously.

2005-05-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

lalalala, lalalala. ELMO song. geez.

i'm a temperamental girl.

been mugging for MYE like crazy. ytd mug till 1 plus den sleep. oh man. having maths intensive revision with myself.

went to westmall after physics and ss paper. i can say that i have no confident to score well for both papers man. physics was rather easy. mug like hell yet the paper so ____. ah. ss. i hope i dont get out of pts yeah. ha. den stayed back a lil with yuhting to see Mr Koh regarding geo. yup. hey Mr Koh! remember to bring back seashells from TIOMAN hors! wondering hows his diving there. asked him to bring me along, he dont want. humpf. jk yea. ha. the way he teaches us was hilarious yea. lalala. off we go to westmall after that. bought my maths TYS. blah blah blah. talked with yuhting. life is unpredictable. so yeah. suddenly downpour when we were going home. reached home safely and went to zzz. woke up at 4.30pm to watch CNA regarding the late president's cremation ceremony. was rather sad yea. yup. after that baby smsed me after his swimming. he wanted to ask me out. but was kinda late already. yeah yeah. going out with him later. had sandwiches for dinner. maths intensive revision! did 13 chapters for maths alr. and i smsed till crazy ytd nite.

lalalala. lalalala. i'm going out with baby today. or rather later part of the afternoon. gonna get mothers' dat present.

HAPPY ADVANCE MOTHERS' DAY to every mom in this world. to my mom and to his mom too. ha.

add oil PEOPLE! ENDURE! chills. x)

ha.

2005-05-04T18:03:00.000+08:00

managed to scrap out some time to blog. guess i wont be blogging for the rest of the week due to the upcoming MYE. stressed out ehs. quite depressed. ss driving me crazy man. guess my combined humans really going bonk man. but i will pull up my socks. damn my chemistry. 0.2% to b3. why?!! mom was really happy when i gave her the bag i bought for her. and she said the skirt i bought was really nice and wanted to borrow from me. after that she added smt unpleasant. hais. dont think i'll be bringing my phone to sch anymore. must concentrate in cls. also to prevent the 'Mr/Ms thief' that keep bioing the N classes valubles. he/she definately gonna get retribution from the god. anyway, gonna bathe and go out for dinner. buhbye.

all the best for ppl taking MYE this few weeks yea. chills! =)

shopping.

2005-05-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

weet u weet. broke my promise and went shopping today! bought a lot of things. i bought bra, panties, bag, earrings, rubberbands and skirt. ha.

dint thought of going out till winnie called. yeah. and my hp went missing. i search in my room and discovered that it landed in my rubbish bin. duh. funny. winnie called and asked me if im free to go out. heh. of cuz im free lah. then decided to go towning.

took 174 to town. went to famous amos to find my ex-colleagues. realised that there's lotsa new staffs. bought chocochip macadamia. yummy. went to best denki to find eve chill out. her break so late. so decided not to chill yea. went to try out lotsa perfume. but i still love LANCOME's so magic perfume. the smell is like very sweet and very lady like. BVLGARI's perfume also not bad. ha. both also 90 bucks. wanted to buy. end up walking out. went to shop at heeren. bought a super duper nice skirt from AM/PM. continue to shop. chill out at cine. saw my NCO camp's friends. had ice mocha. after that went to far east. bought a bra and 3 panites butt on. the bra damn nice. lalala. bought a handbag too. took a bus home with winnie. she came my hse to dl songs to her mp3. she just went back not long ago. sians. dint study. so sinful. hais.

oh well. mom is like hinting me that she will get me n7610. wahs. i hope so alr. heh. maybe not n7610 anymore. i want a 3G phone. perhaps n6670? see how alr.

i miss my baby alr!

nerd.

2005-05-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

FULL-TIME NERD! x)

horrible. im becoming like a full-time nerd. studied till 1 plus in the morning last night. complete my physics alr. my chemistry still stuck at acids and bases. 12 more chapters to go. going bonk man. MYE is just 5 days away. gonna study for the whole day tml. i need a break. i wanna go shopping! perhaps after MYE. scary. i miss towning. i wanna go out. i wanna go sentosa. there's so many things in my life that i haben complete. *yawns. i need a break. ha. anyway. im 80% recovered. had 2 capsules and 1 tablet last nite. cannot tahan till going berserk. so.. asked my dad for help. woke up this morning was slightly better than last nite. suffering from flu instead of coughing. siao eh. weather sot de. ha. my mom rewarded me 10 bucks for dunno what reason. and its goes to my piggy bank. ha. i wanna save lotsa money. updated my bank book. realised tt i just got my april's pay. lols. tts my final pay from famous amos. duh. no more extra income le. ha. life has to go on yea. talking to my baby now alr. lalala. happy. ciaos. =)

pool.

2005-04-30T12:31:00.000+08:00

playing online pool now. how sinful by not studying. perhaps later. ha. MYE is less than 1 wks time. start getting serious yea. as well getting sick soon. been coughing non-stop. hate to be sick esp when it comes to MYE. lalala. gonna be strong yea. played badminton with my kakis this few days. got one BIG or-cheh on my wrist. yesterday's match was hilarious. teamed with siong wei. norman and changyi keep eyeing on me cuz im a long distance shooter. but too bad. naninani poo poo. we won. ha. will be playing badminton again after MYE. currently stand down. right arm;s muscle sore. love the feelings of sweating. duh. =)

shopping! bought 2 skirts, 1 top and 1 spag ytd with mom. she was not feeling well yet i still bug her to go shopping with me. unfillal yea? ha. but really enjoyed the times with my mom. *cough cough. going offline soon. bye.

duh.

2005-04-27T20:04:00.000+08:00

life is pretty good. way to go. HA. =)

faint.

2005-04-26T19:28:00.000+08:00

ah. fainted twice and fell down once in sch today. 1st time; while walking towards the stairway just beside the boy's toilet. 2nd time; outside staffroom. the feeling was terrible. luckily got cherng ru to help me. thanks girl. dunno what happened to me. mdm chok said i was too exhausted. well.. isnt the case. at that moment, i just feel that im in deep shit. my body is as soft as a jelly. could barely walk. what's wrong with me? perhaps my body is trying signal me there's something wrong. ha. dont worry be happy. im perfectly alright. much to say, i guess.

recovered pretty much after chemistry. physics test was cancelled again. hais. studied so much yet cancelled. realised my maths dropped a lil. was quite sad though. anyway. hope i'll get the RDA CIP. so i can teach the disabled kiddos how to ride on pony. heh. :D

-

2005-04-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

i dont cry easily unless i couldnt take it anymore.

reminiscent.

2005-04-25T20:11:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. did you ever think back of your childhood memories. does anything on your present life reminiscent of your childhood life? i wonder if i could turn back the time to my pri sch life. perhaps specifc year, 1999. that was during my pri 4 life. its also going to be the millenium year. yeah. guess at that point of time, im the biggest size yeah. should have cut down on the intake of food then. how foolish i were. ha. anyway. im not that bad either. lalala.

i miss my childhood.

had lotsa fun today. had moodswing in the morning. but when its maths period, was a lil hyped-up yeah. love maths. cause can crack my brain. had kiddos fight. childish yeah. cannot help it. den after sch jam with jiesheng on dick's mp3. blasting on jay's song. its been ages since i listened to jay's. it makes me remind of lotsa things. ha. then went to canteen to chill. had milo. jay walked with jiesheng and kenneth around the school. crazy yeah. took 10 minutes to tour around the school. ha. going to study soon. tk care.

rot.

2005-04-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

qns: how is it like when a person makes you wanna go lala?
ans: the feeling is simply great! ha. =)

HAPPY FOURTH MONTHSARY BABY!

yeah. erms. its 24th of the month again. its the monthsary again. though we dint celebrate tgt. it is still meaningful. thinking back, its been the 4th month since we were in relationship. ha. i miss him. i love him. time we spent tgt cannot compare to any other things. it simply sweet yeah? you are the person that makes me wanna go lala. ha. =)

im addicted to you.

stayed at home the whole day. studied in the morning. had lunch and watch tv. studied again and went to take a nap. played online pool awhile. and here i come and blog. going to study later.

FULL-TIME NERD. 8-)

fun!

2005-04-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

hey ya! quite hyper today. crazy girl yeah. :D

ytd nite went to drink with eve. never ever drink vodka. its bad for yr health. ha. met up with eve on the bus. reached lot 1. went to 7-11 to find hooch. dun have. lousy sias. den went to cheers to find lors. also dun have. end up buying vodka. so yeah. sat down and chill out. we talked lotsa things. her so called relationship so sweet. but abit too old for her lahs. ha. talked abt her clubbing life too. should try going to club one day. perhaps after n's. ha. chill till 1am den take cab home. ha. reached hm, mummy thought i was missing. duhs. smsed my baby and went to slp.

woke up at 10 today. went to watch the pacifier. not that nice as what i thought. ha. den met yuhli at coffeebean. went to library to search for recipe books. den went to bkt timah after that. played pool at century. i broke my promise alr. nvm lahs. must enjoy today. tml will be the start of my FULL-TIME NERD programme. ha. cant chill le. den after pool went to bkt timah food centre to have dinner. after went to glory church to find back my childhood memories with yuhli and cherng ru. so yeahs. played catching at they full of memories playground. but it have changed to a plastic kind. eee. den cherng ru video shoot us. yuhli and i were like kiddos. ah. saw andy too. we were like siao char bos. ha. den went hm. eve called me to chill out again. but dun feel like. told her i need a rest. so.. i finished one maths paper. heh. tml will study chinese. ciaos.

pain.

2005-04-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

back pain. arms pain. ah. terribly. cant imagine tt MYE is just nxt wk. gosh- hbn even start revising. like what cherng ru said to me on the bus today, "all teachers are not prepared for the MYE. teachers help us with revision and its seems they dint finish the topics they supposed to finish." yeah. i agree. this MYE is too early. i wasnt prepared for it. seriously. i only well prepared for my maths. i'm hoping for a 1 in maths.

supposed to go to town with yuhli for pool. end here staying at home to study. sorry yeah. exams are round the corner. after exams then chiong pool kaes?

i need support by my side yeah. ha.

I JUST WANNA LIVE IN YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL. :D *muacks

...

2005-04-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

sians. i have to write a chinese compo related to the casino that's gonna be open by 2009. help yea!

actually, i agreed and disagreed. crazy teacher. have to write at least 280 words. duhs. exams coming yea. next wk. =\

hais.

2005-04-18T21:16:00.000+08:00

what have i done? stranded alone. =(
nobody cares.
who knows what im thinking? -nobody
who is there to cheer me up when im down? -nobody
who knows im crying now? -nobody
who knows im sick now? -nobody

somehow i just dont belong to this world. i wanted to leave this world for many reasons and for many times. did anyone tried to stop me and say no? the answer is nobody.

im numbed.

youmademegolala.

2005-04-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

you made me wanna go lala. yeahs. met sweetie ytd. he looks so tanned yea. his trainings are forever busy. dang. had dinner at cafe cartel. nice. just you and me. yeahs. had fun. reached home around 11pm. went to slp. yawns. :D

still fascinated by e gold with honours. left a legacy for e jnrs to follow. received a testimonial from timothy. erms. its kinda sarcastic alr. cant blame. we are rival bands. heh.

derry.
if you are reading it, just wanna tell you that i never regret having you as my jnr. we may quarrel with each other, but we did give in to one another. the ups and downs we shared shall never be erased from my heart. though we only spent 1 and 1/2 yrs tgt, to me its like more than that no. of yrs. we are more than just snr and jnr. you are just a friend to me. i cried when you wrote the entry for me. yeah. guess what? im crying now. we pulled thru and we got what we want. releasing for syf tt day. i dint get to hug you. hais. im so jealous over leqi as she gets to hug you. ah. when will be my turn? hopefully during e band lunch yea. dun forget to arrange my section lunch. i have high hopes on you. and i have high hopes for my section. i may not be in our section anymore. but remember that i'll be beside you to support you. tk care my cutey jnr. i'll be back. :D

dang.

2005-04-16T10:01:00.000+08:00

dang! i missed my geography fieldtrip this morning. i was longing to go for this trip. yet i missed it. dumb me alr. was quite sad. cuz i put my alarm as 6am. somehow it off for dunno what good reason. maybe its a sign to show i shouldnt go for this trip. ha. spiritual attack man. yahs. woke up n cludnt slp anymore. decided to online. check some forums. didnt know that swiss winds got lotsa supporters. thanks man. swiss winds rawks alr. anyway, anyhow, we rawk e hall. im so proud of myself n my follow bandsman. GOLD with HONOURS.

bass clarinettist- principle player, sectional leader // 2002-2005
drum major- 2004-2005

once a bass clarinettist, always a bass clarinettist. :D

going out with my sweetie tonight. its been ages since i saw him. rather dusty alr. anyway, decided not to buy e converse shoe tt shown on my blog. i know its limited edition. but i think i should spend money on other essential stuffs. tk care.

GWH.

2005-04-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

guess what? WE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS! yeahs. WE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!

couldnt really slp e day before syf. woke up at 2.40am. lotsa greetings from several peeps. so touch. asked dad to send me to sch. pleated our hair. run thru our pieces n off we go to SCH. reached there. prayed. i prayed lotsa times. we got on e stage like no ones business. yeah. we did rawk e hall. WE RAWKED THE HALL. my dearest lingwei mom is there to support us. i love sembwinds man! e chief coucil members stayed back n receive e results. nerve-wrecking man. when results were announced, i called my jnr. 'band 130, swiss cottage secondary school. GOLD WITH HONOURS!' i cried. i cried. i cried. every council members were so darn happy. went back to sch. packed my stuffs n went hm. slept awhile n took a bath n went to meet hs n lq for steamboat. yeah. had seoul garden. damn nice. talked with mr chew too. crap loads. lalala. went hm n called mr chew again. hees. n checked smt online. woolala.

swiss com batch'05. love you guys man.

crazy.

2005-04-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!

yeahs. today is my dad's bd. went to town with my cousin to get e cake. ooolala. havent celebrate yet. wait for my mama to come back. heh.

went to town today. shopping time. dint get anything but foods. lotsa foods. ha. gonna put on weight. i hope not. eh.

chiong maths!! bye.

erxin.

2005-04-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

today is my last sat band pract. was tiring alr.

f shit. so its my fault nw alr. i dunno what e hell did i ever done wrong to him man. so nw im e devil alr. oh pls. god. pls be on my side. i did nth wrong alr. he is e one tt causes all this f shits to happen. n right nw he's blaming on me. wth did i ever do wrong man. maybe. i shudnt befriend with him in e first place. i've cocked eyes man. he's e worse guy i ever came across. so what he's rich. he's a bastard. he's a scoundrel. detest him to core. i will curse him upside down left right n centre. yeahs. f shit. hope his love life is screwed up by lotsa probs. yeahs. i will be laughing upside down, left right n centre. if i ever saw him again, prob i will give him a tight slap to wake him up.

im not as evil as what u think. try to test my patience n i will curse u n detest u upside down, left right n centre.

this entry doesnt concern my baby.

well.. i miss him lots.

went to town with jiesheng. supposed to catch swing girls. ah. sold out. f shits. damn suay today. saw a accident. damn horrible. first time in my life saw a human brain. e brain was on e road. obviously tt guy was dead. veh sad alr. got carried away too. hais. life is full of ups n downs. we cant predict what will happen to us e very nxt moment. who knows. i might be dead pretty soon. yeahs. hmmm. went to buy my dad's bd present. tml is his bd! woolala. bought him a set of wallet n key pouch. cost me a bomb alr. hope he loves it. lalala. going to town to catch swing girls with my cousin tml. yeahs. going to shop. going to buy a bd cake. saw e oreo cheesecake at taka. seems very nice alr. oh well. my stomach is grumbling nw. dint haf dinner. as usual.. on diet. ha. lets pray n hope tt we will get what we want.

anyway. i pray n hope tt orals ends before aug. so that i can get my braces done. heh.

god is so good.

ilu baby. twentyfour-twelve-ofour.

god.

2005-04-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

god. pls guide me thru e path. perhaps im too lost. yeah.

tml will be my last sat band pract. hais. no more work. no more sat band pract. felt so lost. is there smt wrong with me? i hope not. sometimes i really wonder if im leading in a practical society. pls tell me. ah..

woots.

2005-04-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

weets. i felt so much better ever since just nw. finally confronted him on his blog. at least he knows that he's in e wrong. but. found out smt tt he done smt deadly towards me. nvm. its e past. i shant brood over about it. hope he's leading a better life right nw. if his life is screwed, just unscrewed it. ha.

hais.

2005-04-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to do. life aint happy at this moment of time. not cuz of my boy. my boy is treating me well. is just other factors in my life. or i should rephrase saying in sch. call me crazy. call me nuts. u guys wont know how much stress im suffering nw. hais. =(

affirmation.

2005-04-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

im passing out soon. sobs. came back from my last indoor performance at indoor stadium. weets. AFFIRMATION rawks. aiyohs. almost fall aslp went e GOH gave his speech. oops. saw my sweetie too. tot wasnt able to see him as there's lotsa ppl. but thank god fro it. while walking for e reception, i saw him. i tap on his back n he box my shoulder. woolala. pain lah sweetie. ha. e reception was great. was crapping wif justin n vanessa. abt errr. im e famous amos ceo. lol. yea yea. my sweetie is darn cute. xD

ytd was my last day of my job. so.. in future dun bother to go to wisma's famous amos to look for me yea. hais. was abit sad though. but guess i haftu start revising my examination subs alr. i will score perfect for all my subs.

oh yea. reached hm darn late ytd nite. abt 1.30am. lalala. was tired though. went out wif sweetie after my work. dint expect tt he came n fetch me frm work. so sweet alr. yea. den we walked to heeren n take 190 to ps. walked around ps n went to istana park. weets. love that place lots. ha. den played lotsa stupid games. won a few rounds. after tt he won. ha. den left istana park at 1.20am n went hm. yawns. went hm n slp. duhs. gtg.

you are my only one. yeah baby.

f mood.

2005-04-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

im in a damn foul mood nw. dun mess with me. i will bite u up down left right centre.

damn sick. f off man. arghs.

lose fats.

2005-03-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

heya! heya! pretty hyped up today. rained in the morning. cold cold yea. had class as usual. pray hard that i will score well for my accounts man. was easy though. guess my amt aint correct. ha. was pretty frustrated abt e class tee. bloody ass. cant they just use their mind? haiyoo.

went to jp after sch. checked e price for our class tee. was wondering if wanna do polo tee or just normal tee. ha.

i miss my darlin! =D

new layout.

2005-03-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

got myself a new layout. its kinda nice yea. lols.

i wanna let the whole world to know that i haf a super duper ultra cute baby. and thats my deariee. woolala. cant describe my feelings now. very excited. dunno why. lalala.

trulymadlydeeply-inlovewithyou ;*

cramps

2005-03-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

long time dint update alr. ha. lazy. also no time to update. yea. for e past few days.. ha. had sports day. enjoyed by having mac as breakfast. ha. red house is the champion. woo lala. ha. it marks e 3rd monthsary of me n my deariee.

went out wif my deariee on good fri. had lotsa fun. watched robots. ha. damn cute alr. was packed at cine. saw timo wif his co. went to bugis to haf fish n co after e show. yea. very delicious. lalala. after tt took train to kallang n we walked to waterfront bay. yea. reached there n sat down at one of e bench. i love e scenery. darn beautiful. yea. went off at 0930. took cab hm. was ultra duper tired. but i love it. i'm lovin' it.

had band on sat. went to e new bandrm. ah. super ultra duper dead. lalala. went for work after tt.

went to work as usual e nxt day. pia hwk once i reached hm. ah.

lalala. i love you baby..

haiyoo

2005-03-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

dunno wat to write. not feeling well. stomach giving me probs. arghs. gimme a break..

fa

2005-03-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

my boy is back frm mlysia. finally. finally. finally.

he's at tp now. went to jp after sch. bought 2 tubs of swensen ice cream n famous amos cookies for mama. hope she likes it.

dunno how to describe my feelings now. feel so lethargic and uncomfortable.

woot.

2005-03-18T23:34:00.000+08:00

ah. my baby just came back to sg today. but left this evening to mlysia again. aiyoh. miss him terribly sias. guess his slping now. think tml morning he's going to dive. envy him. can dive. well.. as for me im nuts abt diving lahs. only noe e corals. ha. he's coming back on sunday night! weets. cant wait to see him. gosh. hope my baby take real lotsa care of himself. heh.

love you baby!!!!

a moment like this.

2005-03-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

some people wait for a lifetime for a moment like this.

yeahs. some people just wait for a moment like this. why? for that something that is special. i wanna spend my lifetime with him. till death do us apart. seriously. this is not a puppy love anymore. im so in love with my guy. call me crazy. call me nuts. im just in love. im lovin it baby.

went to my mum's restaurant to haf dinner. gonna put on weight i think. had sharkfin. yummy yum yum. ah. too sinful. dun care abt it anymore. today dl lotsa songs. had cls in e morning too. lazy to go but ended going. cuz im for sure that mdm chok gonna call my parents if i dun go. ha. so smart of me. lala. den went to je to meet momo to get back my ss tb. after tt went to lot 1 to find recipe bks for my coursework. found quite a no. of recipe bks. but my cousin's card cannot borrow. ah. nvm. den went hm n stoned. finished my physics. still got ss n chi. tml den pia lahs.

i miss you like crazy.

haish-

2005-03-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

tell me. why am i so foolish? did i lie to him? i sacrifies so much n this is what i got. wtf. u fucking bastard.

nobody knows what im thinking. prob ru n bel. they might know it. cuz it happens went i was at ru's hse. my heart is crying out loud..

i wanna hug my baby.

sians.

2005-03-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

my boy went to mlysia le. miss him so much. early morning he sent me a sms saying tt 'hey. going off le. just want to say. good morning. and i love you baby. i will never stop lovin you. cause you make living worthwhile. take care baby.' ah. he's so sweet. but im still slping. replied him saying tt i love him too n must come back safely to me again. yeahs. hais. really miss him. its only e 1st day. 7 more days to endure sias. i wish i clud call him but he's phone dun haf auto roam. duhs. =)

went to sch today for band. was jamming wif my boy's mp3. ytd spent whole nite trying to figure out how to upload songs into his mp3 wifout e installation disc. finally. cracked my brainy into pieces n found e way. lala. was happy to jam wif his mp3. cuz its good charlotte! bleahs. they rock my asses. ha. had band. was tiring alr. after band walked to e mrt wif jin xiu, huishi n leqi. was bitching again. ha. crazy bums. den reached hm stoned in front of e tv. watched e tidal wave show. very sad lahs. ha. wat is done cannot be undone. its god's will. its god's grace. anw. cleaned my room. looks so much neater. ha.

maybe chiong my hwk ltr. heh. tatas.

inlovewifyousince.twentyfour-twelve-ofour

im loving it.

2005-03-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

ytd was so fun! lalala. after work chiong to meet dear. of cuz wif my cookies smell lahs. it stinks lots. went to tp. bought him a diver tee cuz.. firstly, he's a diver.. secondly, he's going to mlysia.. lastly, he's my sweetie pie. den bought swensen ice cream for him too. aiyohs. lots of barang barang for him lahs. ha. went over to his around. sweet lahs. went hm after spending sweet times wif him. omg. my dear becoming more n more handsome le alr. go n highlight his fringe. 25bucks. so ex. i can help him dye for 12bucks. haha. nvm. my dear looks more shuai now. weets. ilu dear.

hahahaha. i just love today alr. i hope good charlotte will come to s'pore to perform. ah!

went shopping today! so happy!

early morning met up wif my cousin. went wm to get my water cooler bottle. its cool. 1.5l sias. can drink like hell alr. so yea. went to creative. took a cab there. quite dumb lahs. cuz cousin n me dun wanna walk. its damn far lahs. lazy bums. took dear's mp3 to repair. end up e creative gave him a new one. wahliews. so good sias. den nw e mp3 is charging. im e 1st to use it. even e owner cannot use it 1st. dear.. dun be angry hors. ha. went to clementi to haf lunch. after tt went to lavender to collect my ic. lost it once. 100 bucks fly away. ha. blame myself lahs. den went to bugis to buy sling bag. bought it at 22bucks. ha. den went to stc to get my roxy pencil case. hais. e black one sold out. e pink one too. got another pink design. dear said it was nice. quite ok lahs. ha. den went to esplanade to take bus to queensway. waited for e bus like hell alr. ha. almost zzz on e bus. too tired le alr. den bought a running shorts dere. walked around n went to chinatown. cousin bought a mp3. same as mine. ha. had dinner n chiong to tp to meet dear. saw dear wif huge haversack n a bag of 1.5l of water. ah. so heavy. but my dear is strong. can feel e big big muscles on his arms. ehs. exchanged phone. got his lg phone. he got my 8310. he's going mlysia tml. will miss him like crazy sias. 7 days cannot sms n talk to him. hais. must endure. lalala. den send him to amoy quee den go home le. tired ehs. going to slp soon. tml got band.

you are my everything. miss you like nuts.

...

2005-03-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

long time dint update alr. ha. lazy lors. stress wif sch works too. ha. hmmm. life is shagged alr. dunno what to update also. i just wanna jam lahs. blast my room wif good charlotte. they rocks to core man. ha.

went out wif my guy ytd. ehs. went around stc. ha. was nice. very sweet eh. lalala. went to flash n splash to look for roxy pencilbox. ha. gonna get it this monday. lol. went to millenia walk too. e place where we got tgt. lols. love is in the air. ha. went to swensen too. had earthquake. ice creams. yummy yum yum. talked abt braces wif him. he used to put braces. so yea. going to put soon. after my orals. yeahs. lalala. den we walked back to mrt station. took train hm. reached hm around 11pm. washed up called him n went to slp.

woke up this morning n went to sch. ran 2.4km. my timing was 14:45min. gonna buck up. so lousy. im e 2nd girl in my cls. e 1st girl was 14:33min. 12 secs faster den me nehs. den was darn tired. dragged myself to maths cls. was abit frustrated when cludnt solve e qns. ah. den recess. after recess got back my ca marks. was satisfied lahs. l1r5 27. able to promote to sec 5 wif 5 pts. better den e top scorer in my cls. ha. so happy. ru n me so happy. cuz we beat e top scorer. lols. den had band. was good lahs. budden buck up more. c'mon. syf in 31 days.

maia n sly went to rom n registered on 2nd of march. but sad to say.. they broke up 2 days ago. so sad. ha.

sick.

2005-03-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

my stomach giving me trouble again. ah. seems like my dietary fibre intake is getting higher ehs. ha. or might be lacto-intolerent. but cannot be. i drink milk regulary. so.. really dunno why lahs.

in e morning, accompanied ru to run. slowed down a lil. after tt went to n2's clsrm to cool down. ru kip complain abt her reddish cheeks. its cute kaes ru. ha. had chem. was faithfully listening to ms tan teaching us. as well to prepare tml's test. up nxt was physics. half way thru e lesson had fire drills. annoyed by it. supposed to haf physics test. it haf postponed frm 28 feb till now. ah. i want physics test! den took e cls list n gather my clsmates in twos n off we go to e basketball court to assemble. was funny though. crappin wif li jia n li ting. diaos. after drills went back for maths. was surprised when i got e 2nd in position for maths. dint really hope for it. but it just appeared as 2nd. lols. a1 kaes. lols. jiayou for myself. had recess. bought mrs lee a cup of coffee as she helped me ytd. she said was merely joking. i told mrs lee "mrs lee, i always take ur words seriously." ha. she luff n dunno wat to do wif e coffee. of cuz drink it lahs. n she said she haf been drinking since when she was in uni. ha. had f&n. finished my research. but got rejected. hais. den haf to edit more work. assembly was nxt. talked abt physical fitness level in our sch. girls are always stronger n fitter den guys. ha. at least for our sch. had band after tt. was pretty good lahs. went hm wif leqi after tt. was bitching around till paula, belinda n shirley join us. ha. went hm wif shirley. yeahs. den reached hm bathe n haf my dinner. nw rest. ltr haf to chiong chem le. tatas.

miss my baby lots. ehs. x)

stress.

2005-03-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

stress ah! im not confident enuff for my tests. not really up to my standards yet. hais. i wanna do well. i wanna excel in everything i do. i just wanna be who i am. lalala. my account tests cannot balance! hais.

no hwk for today. yeahs. went to lot 1 wif bel n ru. had coffeebean. pure chocolate. lols. den walk around. went to popular too. wanted to get that billabong pencilbox. but felt tt its not big enuff for me. ha. my current pencilbox is kinda big already. but i need a bigger one. mebbe i will get e roxy pencilbox. yeahs.

my sweetie, i love you lots.

hahahahaha.

2005-03-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

i wanna jam my room wif good charlotte! i just wanna live!

yeahs. current mood is darn happy. cuz i wanna live wif my beautiful soul. ha. my honey sweetie baby cheers me up wif his beautiful soul. lalala. my baby is pretty kaes. no i shud sae he's handsome. yups. supposed to meet today. but my work forbids so. ah.

i miss you honey sweetie baby.

241204-

sad.

2005-03-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

ah. got scolded again. sometimes really feel like quitting. far beyond words that can be describe.

got back my accounts test. was a lil happy as i improved jus a few tiny weeny marks. ran alot today. 2x1.6km today. in total of 3.2km. wahs. my 1.6km only 9:12min sias. so lousy. aiming below 8min. tml gotta train with ting. lala.

band. dun wanna talk abt it. makes my heart boils.

ah. i hate stress. i wanna jam!

arghs.

2005-03-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

tell me whats e point of going to sch whereby sch doesnt inform us on whats happening? swiss cottage secondary school sucks lots. worst sch ever. so e bloody sch got us into 'trouble'. cca day, isnt suppose to haf cca n not sports heat? wth! hatred! fuck off. n he's blaming onto us for not telling him earlier. i got to noe on tues nite. wth. n teacher-in-charge jus suddenly mia. why? he's gonna cancel practs. n not aiming to any gold. im breaking down soon. with all e fucker sch system are doing onto e poor students in swiss. wth! there's no justice in this world. stress! teachers are pressing us for gd grades. yeah. everyone is trying to get gd grades. but no pts pushing. really dun feel like studying anymore. im studying for e sake of that bloody piece of cert. arghs. full of hatred towards this sch. no matter what we do, we are always in e wrong. pls tell us what is correct den. we are trying to do our part. wake up ppl. pls dun treat it as if in e honeymoon mode. u guys getting us into trouble. darn angry. hais.

hitch.

2005-03-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

hilarious day. hitch rocks! watched e sneak preview with my darling. had pizza hut. yeahs. so called celebrated for scoring so well for his olvls. yeahs. i miss him.

olvls.

2005-02-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

my darling scored very well for his olvls. cheers*

heyhey.

2005-02-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

im back. lotsa things happened. happy or sad. yeahs. hais. life is always full of ups and downs.

dint go to sch on 240205. was sick. was supposed to see a doctor in e morning. woke up at 11 so decided not to see a doctor. met my boy as its our 2nd mthsary. meet him at somerset. ah. he wore e shirt i gave him. lalala. suit him perfectly. lala. went to cine to check out e time or rather movies. dint really impress by e shows. kinda bored. so decided to go kpool. pooled wif him for e first time. saw his fwens. was abit paiseh. im a lousy pool player. hais. but my boy is a pro. e way he plays pool is darn charming. so yeahs. went to bishan to take a bus to ecp. went to coffeebean once we reached there. had pure chocolate n triple decker cheesecake. yummy! went to see down on 1 of e bench. talked with him. very fun. right dear? heh. den slowy den sun sets. aeroplanes fly by. its ultra romantic. heh. den on the way back, we talked our future. we just like married couples. ha. den reached hm opened e bd presents he gave me. i cried. i cried not bcuz of sad things. its becuz tt i nv ever tot tt he gave me a diary. he wrote his personal feelings in it. wow. its e bestest gift i ever received. he's e sweetest guy i ever met.*muacks. thanks darling.

went to sch for syf rehearsal. hais. dun wanna sae abt it.

went to work. my naknak gave me a roxy wallet. yeahs. siti gave me a choker. lala. dear came down with his fwens. walked passed fa n came n asked me what time i knocked off. den busy as usual. went hm st8. was smsing with him too. my life is pretty stressed out. hais.

my bd.

2005-02-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

wow. its my day peeps. so happy. special thanks to my sweetest deariee ever, cherng ru, bel, ben, henry, siongwei, brana, ms seah, xiaojing, li ting, ting ting, yujia, paula, regina, shirley, zhiwen, justin, brendan, valerie, zhi xian, yiling, jessmin, feroz, li jia, jiesheng, raidah, waty, lingwei, leqi, fazelia, huishi, geraldine, mdm chok,yin mei, zane, yu qian, yongwei, vanessa, yuh li, yuh ting, jessica, andy, yu wei n lotsa peeps. pardon me if i left out any of u. yup. so yeahs.

went to sch as usual. saw xiao jing. took e same bus to sch tgt. ha. den went to cls. nth much. tot its jus another day for me but my cliques really surprised me with smth i had nv dreamt on. me to you bear! gosh. its very ex. heartpain for them. so yeahs. paula, shirely n regina got me to you bear for me too. felt so xingfu. heh. got numerous soft toys frm fwens. ha. im sixteen already. yeahs. den life as usual with my horrible terrible headache. hais. got better somehow as i took a panadol frm ben earlier this morning. heh. den after sch stayed back in cls as my cliques surprised me again. they got me a cake. wow. its been ages since i last ate my birthday cake. awww. they are so sweet. so they sang a very loud birthday song for me. made me so paiseh. ha. after tt had e cake n proceed for my maths test. yeahs. its was easy. hope can score full marks for it. *in my wildest dream. so yeahs. after maths test went to library to wait for cherng ru n bel. yeahs. went to westmall to watch i do i do. ha. its so funny. tt show really reflects lotsa married or single peeps' prob. ah ha. shud watch. yeahs. went to fd court to haf dinner. dint eat anything as my headache is getting worse. sobs* waited for jiesheng, cherng ru n bel to finish their foods n went hm. on e way out saw geraldine with her bf. yeahs. sis forevaa ehs. hees. reached hm applied ice bag on my forehead as im running fever. ah. guess im alright nw. heh. so. smsing my sweetheart nw alr. miss him like crazy. lalala. x)

happy sweet 16 to myself!

headache.

2005-02-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

ah! my head is cracking into 2 pieces. having ultra duper pain headache. pain till can roll on e floor. hais.

few more hrs is my sweet 16 birthday le. hmmm. nth much bahs. all i noe is pain pain on my head. having slight fever too. thnks for my mama dat brew cooling tea for me. awww. so sweet.

supposed to go malaysia to haf a feast cuz of my birthday with my family members. but, cuz of my brother misplaced his passport and he doesnt noe where he put, all i haf for dinner is at bkt timah food centre. hais. my seafood feast! gone. hais.

hope i will get better by tml cuz i wanna enjoy. *pray.

yeahs.

2005-02-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

yup. happy. happy. happy. 3 cheers for myself. shall refrain from talking abt it. cuz im jus happy.

went to sch as usual. im not late. in fact im early. ha. lalala. so yeahs. im refreshed while ben keep slping. tried wake him up several times. so yeahs. fnn was so tedious. redo my mindmap 3 times! gosh. could haf done other important stuffs for my coursework instead. ah. all cuz of my diskette. darn. so yeahs. recess was fun. bel and me chiong all e way frm com lab to canteen. ru was jus laughing behind us cuz we are so 'kiasu' like. ha. wat to do? hungry ma. lala. den after recess was accounts. reconciliation was easy. ms mg praised me. yahdas. den lessons was as usual till after sch. slept in my cls, on my table. ha. was bloody hot. why? cuz of global warming. ah! even though got 6 fans, wads e use man. ha. den stayed back for geog extra class. watch e show on farming n tourism. after tt can go hm. went hm n changed to head to town. met up my cousin at bkt timah. my uncle drove us there! so gd. yeahs. went pizza hut for dinner. ordered personal pan hawaiilian pizza. delicious. ha. den went to far east to shop. saw this dunk ultra nice. gonna get it when my cousin ask me to go shopping with her again. hees. went hm after tt as gonna pia my hwk. guess not gonna do anymore. its getting late. hope my headache gets better by tml morning. ha. hope my dear's leg will recover asap. love u lots. heh. =)

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2005-02-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

long time dint update alr.

met up with sweetie to watch constantine. very nice. kinda scary. went hm late. dad fetch me hm as there were no more night buses.

had band. tiring. screwed up a lil. throw face. hais.

had work as usual. nth much. =(

im having headache. haf to do hwk. arghs.

i haf lotsa complains in my life. but when i sees him. my complains are gone.

sad.

2005-02-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

supposed to meet my dear today. sigh. he couldnt make it. its alright.

had f&n lessons after sch. almost done with my mind map. so yeahs.

no comments.

happy.

2005-02-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

yeahs. ytd was vdae. had lotsa fun. heh. =)

was longed for my extra classes to end earlier. thnk god. heh. cuz of e classmates in my class. keep reminding ms ng to end finish cuz it was vdae. so yeahs. ended before 4.30pm. chiong home. smsed dear to meet earlier. yeahs. went hm n bathe. wanted to wear tt levis top. but doesnt match my s&k bottom. so wore another s&k top. took e presents for him n off to town. i've got him a cake(bake it myself) n a man studio top. saw him. uh. i was shocked tt he actually got me a big bouquet of flowers. was happy. 9 roses. very nice. biggest bouquet of flowers i ever received. ehs. den went to airport. had swensen. long q. waited abt 30mins. had e vdae promo. veh nice. yeahs. den after dinner go and see e planes fly by. its ultra nice to see e planes fly by wif e person u love. heh. after tt went to istana park. sat dere awhile n went hm. its e best vdae i ever had. i love you baby. =)

went to sch as usual. i did not slp in class. ha. but mr lee was kinda angry with my class cuz we were darn noisy during his physics period. he almost cried. in fact his eyes were red. so sorry abt it. had band. went hm wif shirley n leqi after tt. reached hm had dinner n tadas im toking to my baby. heh.

late.

2005-02-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

gonna slp soon. as tml wont be updating cuz its vdae. ha.

went out at 10am to haf breakfast wif my cousin. after that head down to bishan to buy shoes. in e end dint really saw i wanted. den shop around. after tt went to my cousin's hse. stoned. went to mui kah's hse to bai nian. got 2 angbaos. ha. den gamble. played mahjong. lost 10cents. duhs. den went hm.

tml will be a happy day for me.

happy vdae! xDD

cny.

2005-02-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY TO EVERYBODY!

just came back frm town not long ago wif my cousin. went to buy some groceries. wanted to buy perfume for my mom too. but there's no hugo boss around. went to lancome. i love e pink one. but its 90 bucks. *wide eyes. ha. den shop around. went to far east, paragonm wisma, cine n ps. took pic. ha.

collected quite a no. of red packets. duhs.

i miss you sweetie.

happy vdae in advance! =)

cny eve.

2005-02-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

today is e cny eve. had reunion dinner. its repeating e same thing every yr. ha.

tml is e 1st day of cny le. so fast. cant wait to meet my dear cousins. hee.

went to sch as usual. nth much. had short band pract. hey peeps. do come n support e swiss winds on thursday 2pm at istana. heh. its foc. =)

got scolded. its all my fault.

hilarious.l

2005-02-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

yup. my day is filled wif laughter n tears. i mean tears in my heart. my phone got confiscated by mdm chok for not doing e frequency polygons. rushed n finished it quickly to get back my phone. i missed my phone very much. if i dun get back, how am i suppose to contact my dear? meeting him later. cool*

tml cny eve le. cannot go back to my pri sch. haf band pract. sobs. after tt go out wif my cousin.

its my life
now or never
i ain't gonna live forever
i just want to live while i'm alive

i love you

mia.

2005-02-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

my life is so hectic! boo*

04/02-fri
had sch. after sch had band. after band went hm n get changed. met my dear at speacialists centre around 7.30pm. bought famous amos as my stomach is grumbling for food. ha. saw my dear. he looks greats. so yeahs. went to heeren. after tt went to taka. at first wanna buy food. but we went to e place where he used to work to look for his fwen. den i went to find my jie. gave her some cookies to eat. so yeahs. watched aviator. quite a nice show. budden very draggy. ha. went out of e cinema half way as it was quite late.went to buy paus n took some pics in my phone n sent my dear to e mrt. went to my mum's work place after tt. took nr3 home. took a quick bath n went to slp.

05/02-sat
work, slp n band.

06/02-sunday
work n work n work. talking to my dear nw! xD

wahs.

2005-02-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

my room haf a new look. light greeny walls around. n my ultra super duper nice queen size bed haf change to single size bed. sobbs. mom said by putting a single size bed create more space for me to walk. duhs.

during geography, i was shocked when mr koh said e guy tt i wrote i love you in my blog. it was my sweetie. but how he got my url? wondering.. i dint give it to any of my tchers. wondering..

went hm after my eng extra cls. yippeee. no fnn extra cls. woohoo. happy. went to interchange wif mom. suppose to activate my new atm card. fugger. dun wish to sae abt it. went to haf my early dinner. also went to lot 1 to buy so cny groceries.

nw im a lil hungry. craving for bread n milk.

milk does makes me drunk. ha. =)

ilu sweetie.

tired .

2005-02-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

so tired. *yawns.

scss won e soccer match! tot we gonna lose but in e end we won! 4-3. went to dunearn to watch. our sch vs dunearn. wat makes me bored is tt e players kip on falling down. ha. dats funny. anyway. rot for 2hrs dere. wasted 2hrs instead of studying. but its alright. lols.

tml got chinese n ss tests. *cross fingers. hope i will do well. ciaos.

i miss you darling. *muacks.

yeahs.

2005-02-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

finally washed my hair. felt so good. yeahs. tml going to haf maths test n chem test. yeahs. hope i clud score well. ha. nth much. ciaos.

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2005-01-31T19:58:00.000+08:00

think i gonna get sick soon. hopefully recover be cny. so that i clud go out n collect angbaos. ha. jus realised tt there was a lil bump behind my left ear. gosh. wat happened to me? ha.

dint really get scolded by teachers for letting my hair down. ha. mdm tang made fun of me sias. but overall comments by fwens were positive. ha. got 2 a1s for my accounts. yeahs. wasnt satisfied still. gotta study. ciaos.

finally.

2005-01-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

erms. mia for long long time. tot my dad gonna let my uncle reformat e com. ha. so dismantle e cpu frm e whole com. arghs. its been days. he's a lazy bum. so yeahs.

26/01
went to istana for cny band performance meeting. went wif ms seah. erms. its kinda bored. bascially is kinda annual thingy. so nth much. yeahs. after tt went to swensen wif ms seah. she treat me ice cream! gosh. darn nice. sent her to sumwhere to mit ms lim. so yeahs.

27/01
i forgot wad had happened.

28/01
dint went for band. smt happened to my family. basically its a ultra duper sway day. lost my wallet. hais. careless me. dumb. went to choir concert. erms. not much complain. only thing. dam noisy. esp. hongfu n co. arghss. concert dunno how to shut up. also met up my sweetie on e concert. felt really bad ask him to come for e concert not realising tt tt day was his dad's burfdae. sorry sweetie.

29/01
ytd. usual dint went for band pract. cuz haftu work morning shift. sorry guys. yeahs. rebonded my hair. hmmm. must be ultra careful sias. went to newton fd centre wif my mum's colleague after work. had lotsa stuffs. think gonna put on weight. die! must on diet liaos.

gotta work soon. tk care peeps.

bahs.

2005-01-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

im darn full. just had dinner.

my 2 ulcers is killing me. got a new junior. her name is peiling. she made me remind of myself when i was sec 1. dat so called innocent look. new to band. everything dunno look. hais. pain nors.

mum promised me tt after may getting my braces on. ha. maybe rebonding my hair on sat. yeahs.

i miss you -

1st mth.

2005-01-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

yeahs. today is my 1st mthsary wif my baby veggiebrainer. weets. happiest day of my life. yup. just came back! lalas.

went to sch as usual. ruru not wif me on e bus. cuz she haftu go to sch early to chiong hwk. ha. den went wif xiaojing. as usual e bored atmosphere in e air. but enjoys going to sch. after sch had extra cls. till 4.30pm. had to chiong hm. awww. den took 188 hm. its kinda crowded. boo* really hate those ppl tt doesnt noe how to move in to e back of e bus. so yeahs. reached hm n took a bath n chose my clothes n off i go. i was instructed by my sweetie dat im suppose to wear skirt. ha. wore tt brownish skirt. think im craving for brown stuffs. yeahs. saw my baby. he looked ultra cute wif his new hairstyle. baby. u looks great wif e hairstyle! so yeahs. went around j8. finally had sakae sushi. baby bought me a ring. or shud i sae couple ring. its ultra sweet my dear. after he gave it to me, both of us wore it around our fourth fingers. yeahs. den after tt went to swensen to eat ice cream. my baby's company yeahs. its not funny my fellow peers. he's e CEO of swensen yeahs. ha. den after send him to e bus stop. i dun want to go hm. so we walked around e private housing. stopped at one of e lamp post to see e moon. *smoochies. taddas. went to e playground too. my baby is ultra scary. using his hp to scare me. he doesnt noe abt it. yeahs. after awhile send him to e bus stop n off i go. today is one of e best day i ever had in my 15+ years. yeahs baby. love u to bits. happy 1st mthsary. i love you baby. *smoochies.

wwork.

2005-01-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

jsut came back frm work not long ago wif dat horrible cookies smell. yaddas. injured my thumb. dried blood clot left in e fingernail. horrible. pain. duhs.

after work went shopping. bought a top n a pants frm s&k. darn tt stupid lucky plaza s&k staffs. so bloody rude. or shud i sae its only 1 staff? darn him.

gonna study nw. tatas.

yeahs baby.

2005-01-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

erms. haf not been updating recently. paiseh ehs. lazy. moreover by e time i reached hm its already veh late le. so. lazy lors.

210105
went to work. after work waited for my cousin to shop wif me. heh. waited her almost 45mins. zzz. finally she reached at my workplace. saw her veh happy. cuz i noe im gonna spent money. ehs. den we went to my mum's place to dump all e stuffs to her. after tt went out wif e handbag tt my deariee bought for me. hmmm. went to far east to haf lunch cum dinner. had ljs. long tym nvr eat sias. den get out of far east n went to shaw hse's mango. couldnt find any suitable clothing n off we go to ps. went to spotlight to look out for barangs. guess haftu save lotsa money. im broke. yeahs. den went bugis. supposed to go queenway. but ended up at bugis cuz of god noes wat. ehs. hahaha. [my baby just smsed me.] den went to shop. bought lotsa things! i mean cny clothes. cant wait to where sias. bought 1 skirt, 1 jeans , 2 tops n 3 undies. spent over 100 bucks. felt really good. as tt was my mum's money. at e same tym felt kinda bad. bleahs. after my shopping, went to meet my darling. ehs. bought him famous amos cookies at my workplace. ha. den gave it to him. accompany him to take mrt hm. on e platform saw his fwen, on e mrt saw his og's fwen. my deariee is so popular. awww. got to noe tt he cant celebrate 1st mthsary wif me. was kinda sad lahs. but being his gf, i understand lahs. its ok. cuz there's many more mthsary to celebrate. right sweetie?

220105
had band. was tiring. arghs. after tt went back hm to get change to work. was kinda shagged. ehs. lazy to type lahs. was crapping e whole day. got new grandma n mama frm famous amos le. ha. so funny. den meet my darling. he sent me off to e bus stop n waited for e bus. gave him breadpapa n e 'suck oil' tissue paper. he's so tired. but he's slping nw. my piggy. he haftu work morning shift e nxt day. poor piggy. gtg. slping soon too.

once im 16, im gonna chiong pool! bleahs.

darling. love u lots.

sick.

2005-01-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

seems like im getting flu frm my clsmates! its a virus! god. its so contagious! boo* so yeahs. monday will be my 1st mthsary wif veggiebrainer. ha. can go out with him! despite tt our lessons ends at 4+. i think gonna chiong to meet him. budden. dunno where to go. hees. so yeahs. =p

i think im suffering frm god noes wat diseases. in e morning i felt terribly cold when my peers doesnt. im always wif my jumper on. ha. went hm after e stupid extra english lessons. dumb dumb lesson. anyway. went hm n slp. till zak called me. by then its almost 8! gosh! ha. i couldnt celebrate hari raya haji wif my nco mates. cries! arghs. guess maybe haftu wait till march hols. gtg. buhbye!

happy?

2005-01-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

lalas. toking to my veggiebrainer now. bleahs. xD

went to np's open hse. kinda fun. got e stupid goodies bag. quite dumb actually. cuz by e time we reached there, can see quite a no. of ppl leaving e campus. but who cares. 10 of us jus went in. heh. yup. got 2 cups of free popcorns n 1 PINK candyfloss. sweeties! den roam around. went to e business faculty. seems so fun. weets. den went to e convection centre to noe more abt e courses avaliable. yeahs. mebbe going to consider accountacy or biomedical. so yeahs. went hm after that. was exhausted. phew. had dinner n here im online. heh. wonder wads my hwk for today. ha.

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2005-01-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

tears formed. but i gonna hold it back. yeahs. im not gonna cry. i'll be strong.

my midi is so sad. chose tt as my midi. some how i also dunno why. *dumb.

im fat. im fat. im fat. cant change e fact.

bye.

busy

2005-01-17T20:25:00.000+08:00

oh my accounts test. pray hard tt i'll score well. apparently im not confident in my written paper. but i hope miracle will happen. let's hope. yeahs. hmmm. stucked wif my mathe qns. another pile of hwks n physics test. arghs. ms tay took my student guide away. felt like smt is missing in my bag. veh uncomfortable. i nid my student guide! arghs. =(

haish.

2005-01-16T11:02:00.000+08:00

ytd's pract was friggin tired. mr chew wasnt happy. haish. i dunno how, i dunno why. stress lvl haf gone up. wif e no. of assignments n other things tt im concern of. why god create human beings wif a stress in it? arghs.

haf i done smt wrong? x(

angry.

2005-01-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

was darn angry wif e ncc members in my sch. they were so horrible. fwens around me knew what happened. i shant sae it out. my day was spoiled bcuz of them.

guess my grades for accounts dropped a lil. i dunno why. prob ms ng taught too fast. i cludnt catch for up bad debts. arghs. its getting on my nerves!

not feeling well today. ciaos.

yeahs.

2005-01-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

ha. its darn late in e nite. supposed to be slping. but. im not going to slp tt early. im overjoyed! heh. finally got my mp3! wahaha. i love my mum n grandma! yeahs. xP

met my baby todae. he came n fetch me hm frm sch. haha. he's so cute. took lotsa pic wif my fone too. bleahs. darn cute. but he haf to leave around 4. so yeahs.

went hm washed up n went to people's park to get my mp3. yeahs. after tt went hm get changed n went to my mum's restaurant to mummum. veh full. ha. slping soon. tatas.

yeahs .

2005-01-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

was reading some band forum thingy. n i found out there's a faker tt imitates as a swiss winds member. such a disgrace. hasif? any swiss winds members noe who e hell is hasif? doubt they wud noe. ha. well. gonna tell this person off. horrible terrible incorrigible guy. hmmm. wondering if he's jealous of us till he wants to imitate as 1 of our member. not saying tt our band is veh great or wat. but seriously, i can sue him by using our band name. ha.

cherng ru is sick. haish. doubt she will come to sch tml. im alone in e bus missing her. get well soon marmie! heh. i miss her todae as she went hm after recess. suddenly e lame jokes we shared were gone. but, few days ltr she cfm will come back to crap wif me again. ha.

sch was fine. almost zzz during accounts cls as i dun uds wat ms ng teaching. asked for permission to go toilet to washed up. wth! she dint allow me to. fine! ate sweets to stay awake. no choice. den had recess. was in slpy mode though was awake. lessons as usual. sch dismissed! took 945 to bb interchange to mit my cousin. so yeahs. went to jp to get my dcam! finally. woots. den bought my breakfast n went hm.

went hm n slp. zzz. toking to my baby. xP love u baby.

haha.

2005-01-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

haha. just finished calling my darling. calling him later again as he's waiting for an important call. bleahs. so. today had cca recruitment drive. was kinda stupid n i shant type it out as i was kinda tired. so yeahs. was abit unhappy wif my sch. cuz they sort of look down on e normal stream students. so. wats wrong being a normal stream students? arent they human? exp students doesnt mean they own e whole sch yeahs. im not trying to spike anyone. so if u think im trying to spike on e exp students, so be it. haha. watevaa. bias is all i can say. im happy for wat i am right nw.

mishingg u.

2005-01-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

im talking to my lil baby nw. he's darn sweet. love him to bits! woohoo. xp

lalalas .

2005-01-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

on e wings of love.

yeahs. clay aiken's song. darn nice. chatting wif my baby veggiebrainer nw! *smoochies!

hmmm. early morning cooked instant noodles as my breakfast. after that went out of e hse to e interchange. meet cherngru as usual n head towards to sch. deariee's sms always brighten up my days. esp. in e morning. heh. went to clsrm to put my bag. head down to e hall. wore my sweater. its darn cute. i love it though was a lil ex. haha. after assembly went to collect newspaper. today's news doesnt impress me. was bored though. yups. chinese tcher dint come. *hoorays! hahaha. den did accounts n chinese. e time flies real fast. finally! sch dismissed. BUT. haf to stay back for extra accounts cls. 4.20pm! all e way frm 1.40pm rot till 4.20pm! die ehs. so spent e time wif amy. went to 7-11 to buy newpaper. again. news doesnt impress me either. so went to e benches outside meeting rm to read my newspaper. went to cls after that. saw arthur ngoh trying to psyco ppl to drop amaths. den still got tons of time to spare, i went to slp. woke up cuz belinda borrowed glue frm me. couldnt slp after tt. was noisy too. shouted across e clsrm to ask those guys to shut up. after tt put on my sweater n went to slp. couldnt slp! arghs. went to e toilet n decided to go to e bandrm checking out wat e juniors were doing for e orientation. ha. was cold. grrr. was hoping to hug my baby. heh. den helped them a lil. after awhile went off for my accounts cls. was a lil late though. 1/2 hr lesson finished n off i go to cwp wif belinda. arghs. my dcam promotion end! gonna search for dcam again. haish. den went hm after tt. had dinner n stoned in frnt of e tv. today no hwk! heh. xp

holding you tightly in my arms ; never letting you go .

lalalas .

2005-01-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

just finished toking to mr chew . heh . hmmm . finally its fri ! a few more hrs gonna mit my baby . ha . im darn excited . cuz miss him too much yea . den had band today . wasnt really happy . but i haf forgotten abt it . but i will still bear grudges . too bad . ha . i will nvr forget tt sentences . hmmm . so yeahs . gonna get e sweater frm queensway alone tml . after tt meeting my lil cutesy baby . arghss . gonna pinch him . heh . baby . i miss you . X*D

heh .

2005-01-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

yups . my stomach darn full . arghss . haha . was complaining hungry just now but nw complaining too full . heh .

gonna do my accounts hw soon . abit complicated . gonna get my mp3 soon . waiting for e day to come for veh long . finally . so yeahs .

sch was fine . nw i noe how does tsunami formed . ha . every yr kip on complaining e chinese tcher . likewise this yr oso e same . he's so arrogant . arghss . wth ! if he scolds us on mon . i will luff at him . cuz he said he wont scold us anymore . will update tml again . tatas . xD

hahaha .

2005-01-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

heh . im back . lazy to update . as i reached home kinda late ytd nite . ha .

had e 1st band pract ever since sch starts . was ok . was glad . ha . chiong home as i gonna get my mp3 . woots . went hm washed up . after washed up went out of my hse to tp . reached dere , bought my bro's gameboy n went for dinner . dint get my mp3 . was kinda sad though . but gonna get it on fri/sat . yuppies . so tts e day . xD

went to sch as usual . thought gonna slp in cls again . cuz ytd had band practs till quite late . yeahs . den i dint slp . wahaha . so happy . den e chinese tcher kinda irritated by our cls n warned us dat he got his limits . but being a typical rebelious teenager , do u think i care ? ha . so he went off wif a anger on his mind . pls lors . its only e 2nd of his teaching in our cls he couldnt stand us . must well dun teach . ha . *evil . den sch ended around 1.40pm . put e class diary n went to take a bus hm . frankly speaking . i hate to take bus wif lower sec . cuz . they are so 'kiasu' . arghss . den reached hm washed up n went out again . went to town to pass my mom money . took 143 to tp n transferred bus to serangoon to meet my baby . haish . supposed to be a surprise for him . ended he noes it out of dunno where . heh . den surprisingly he took e same bus s me . i dint wish for dat . but god has gave me a wonderful gift of e day . ha . he's ever sweet . lalalas . yups . asked him to choose e HERO bread on e bus . he got e caramel one . e smell is darn nice . its flooding my room . haha . den sent him home . we talked a lil before sending him off . dun feel like going hm cuz i wanna spend more time wif him . but being his dear , i must listen to him . haha . went hm after tt . was kinda tired n decided to zzz on e mrt . ha . couldnt slp . kinda crowded . bleahs . den had yoghurt for dinner . heh . gonna slp soon . tatas . xD

1st day of sch .

2005-01-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

just finished talking to my darling on fone . heh . was a lil sad cuz im dumb . haish . ehs . 1st day of sch was kinda havoc . timetable isnt issued out . n i was 'sabo' by my fwens for being e monitress of e cls . arghs . stress lvl goes up . arghs . den weather was pretty cold . brought my jumper to sch . despite e jumper , i still feeling cold . i wish tt i clud hug him right nw . so yeahs . i miss e sch's spag . so recess headed down for tt . yummy yum yum . yeahs . den e chinese teacher looks like a mushroom . cant help it . so sry for him . i think im too bad . but wad can i do ? tts life .

went to town after sch . yuhli got her levi's jean changed . im in love wif e jean 501 / 599 . darn chio ! arghs . 100 bucks ! den got e levi's top . veh nice . heh . went to buy cd for my fwen as birthday present . im '16' kaes . bought e jay-z n linkin park cd . goshs . its nc-16 . but who cares . e staffs at cine's sembawang were kinda rude . they sarks . forget it . gonna slp soon .

weets .

2005-01-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm . happy new year ! 2005 . i shall make this yr meaningful . heh .

spent time alone wif my dear on e new yr eve . went to work first . after tt went hm n take bath . as e cookies smell its kinda horrible . heh . so meet my dear at heeren around 10 . went to watch movie at cine . we watched love, so divine . its veh nice . veh sweet . veh cute too . heh . after e show , went to take pic ! 1st pic of e 2005 . taken wif my dear . its veh sweet . dun get jealous peeps . *thick skin . hees . after tt cludnt make up e mind of going to lau pat sat or newton to eat . ended up 143 came n we ran for e bus to newton . was having slight drizzling went we reached dere . had carrot cake n stingray . woots . spicy . den happy oso cuz i got my pay . lalas . after tt walked to orchard . on e way saw his fwen which he's angry wif . heh . dear , dun be angry . cool down . so yeahs . took bus home . waited at least half an hr . arghs . got scolded by dad . n he's bloody unreasonable . dun wish to say . haish .

went to work today . was darn tired . as i slept at 5.30am last night . woke up at 8am n off to work . reached wisma realised my fwen forgot to bring e keys . yeahs . stoned outside e shop n eating my eggmuffin . so yeahs . was restless . dun feel like working . haish . during e break , slept for 20mins . veh nice . woke up veh energetic . continued wif my work . after knocked off , realised tt my dear was outside e shop waiting for me . he's so sweet . i dint realised tt he sent me a sms tt he's waiting for me outside . dumb me ! *bishs . frm serangoon to orchard den to cck . dear , dun send me home nxt tym kaes . its veh troublesome . went to lot 1 to get my stationeries . sent him to e mrt n off i go . went hm n took a nap . went to bathe n went to get my sch shoes . overall im tired . but wif my baby deariee , im perfectly alright ! xD

u are the one i'm dreaming of
i can't live without your love
and it's you that i adore
u are the one that i live for
u gave me faith
when i was falling down
it's u
it's u
my baby deariee
24.12.04

stoning .

2004-12-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

yups . stoning for quite awhile . woke up at 12 . went to bathe n off to town to meet my lil baby . so yeahs . waited outside his workplace . went to lucky plaza for his lunch . dint eat as i was kinda full . bought him drinks . his fav 'teh-ping' . hees . den held his hand tightly n send him to work . met my jie at his work place too . stone there as i was assigned to haf her break wif her . heh . went to taka b2 . accompany her thruout her break . after tt went to see zen micro . darn nice . maybe ask my jie to help me geddit . gees . of cuz i pay . duhs . sent her to work n starting my stoning time . heh . went to library . stoned . read books . hahahas . den walked arond taka . by 5.30 was ready to meet my baby . but he haf to work o t . so i waited till 6.30 . stoned on e bench near his workplace . almost fall asleep . hahaha . saw him . awww . he was so cute . dear . admit tt u r cute . hees . den took n-s / n-e line to his house . reached serangoon . saw his senior . he gave his senior sort of a punch . i think tt was real hard . ha . den went to take e bus . now i noe how to get to his hse . lols . den he told me tt if i wanna give him surprise , i noe how to get there . heh . yup . dear . i miss you . hmmm . everytime saw him , i dun feel like going home . he's my everything . so yeahs . sent him home n off to cck to meet my mom . stoned in mrt . reached lot 1 . went shopping wif mom . bought a top frm giordano . maybe wearing it tml . heh . bought groceries for my hse . my hse getting hungry . hahahas . went home n watch e news . e tidal wave . arghss . felt so sry for those ppl died in e disaster . haish . i tink im lucky . was asking my parents if wanna go phuket last mth . phew . thnk god tt i still breathing in this world .

to my veggiebrainer: im addicted to u . u are my everything . ilu- 24.12.04

sweet .

2004-12-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

everyday is so sweet for me . im basking in your love dear . heh . seriously . he never fails to give me surprises everytime we meet . he's e sweetest bf i ever had .

went to band this morning . or rather meeting . was supposed to meet up wif feroz n yujia at 830 . guess wat ? they are late . feroz is 20mins late . omg . i could haf use e time n slp . nahs . its ok . den proceed to coffeeshop 1 for breakfast . had carrot cake . was missing him too . den finished breafast went to bandrm for meeting . tot gonna get scoldings frm ms seah . apparently think she's in gd mood . dint scold . phew . went for lunch after tt with leqi n co . crap lots . den went back to bandrm to settle down . was abit harsh as i couldnt be wat im in e past . heh . i think i my parents gonna strike lottery soon . she came back . sound sucks kaes . i get st8 to e pt . kinda lotsa ppl luff at her . cannot blame her . 2 mths nvr touch instrument . blame who ? haha . den after band chiong down to meet him . was raining though . was in a traffic jam . i got fed up n took a train down to ps . met him for dinner at ljs . after tt he brought me to istana park . heh . so sweet yea . lalala . really veh sweet nors . i dun wanna go but he really has to go home n be a good boy . heh . den i went to my workplace to meet yuhli . went home together . was talking to yuhli abt her . n she was jealous . ger . dun be jealous kaes . den went home . i promise him to slp before 12am . n here i go . xD

you are e strength when i was weak .

happy day .

2004-12-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

heh . im so happy . i felt so lucky to haf him in my life . he never fails to give me surprises everytime we meet each other . heh . i love you dear . went out of my house earlier . forgot to locked e door . got scolded by my dad when i reached home . heh . reached town . went to taka to meet him as he wanted to send me to work . waited for him . sitting alone on e bench missing him . he's forevaa cute . so yeahs . finally saw him ! we walked n we talked . reached my workplace . as usual i dun wanna part each other . we haf to let go our hands . sighs . went to get changed n he's off to his lunch break . i miss you darling . den did cashier again for today . hmmm . was waiting for him to reach my workplace so that i could go for my dinner break wif him . i started to get worried at 5+ why he hasnt shown up . thnk god . he appeared abt 6+ . n he actually ran frm he work place to my workplace . silly boy . there no need for you to rush just to see me yeah . so yeahs . went to breadtalk to get bread . of cus bread . wat else ? heh . den went to somewhere near e control station to sit down . we talked again . before we parted each other , surprise frm him happened . tahdahs . =x not gonna tell u guys . itch heart yeahs ? hahahas . a big hug before we parted each other . he's so cute n extremely sweet to me . while im oily , fat n ugly . hees . i miss you darling . heh . i promise u that i will slp earlier tonight . xD

work .

2004-12-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

gonna boost up myself with love frm him yeahs . gees . hmmm . went to work as usual . been missing him since morning . its like i cant live without him . hoping to see him everyday in my life but i guess when sch starts its kinda hard . heh .

woke up at 9 . went to slp again . woke up again n went to slp again . ha . sounds funny ? its kinda shiok . gees . mum asked me who gave me e bouquet of rose . i said was him . n she replied by saying that he likes u arhs ? well i replied yup . my dear boy , my mum noes your existance . hees . doubt my mum is jealous over me when i got a bouquet of rose frm my boy . haha . finally woke up at 11 by his sms . he's busy while i was slping . so bad of me . hees . had lunch n headed to work . reached my workplace n started packing up e place . its a whole chunk of mess . after tt did 13 silver boxes . when i was doing , he suddenly pop out cuz was his lunch break . hees . he looks cute n charming . heh . den yuhli was curious why was he in a formal outfit . ha . i replied her that he was working at somewhere that needs to be dressed like that . well . my dear boy looks great in it . xD den i said hi n smiled at him . while later he went for his break . i miss you dear . den after that continue wif my packing of silver boxes . finished it up n i was given a big task to do . kinda scary . putting 350 bucks in my pocket frm wisma to somerset . carried back a bag of coins . i was chanting in my heart that no one comes n rob me . ha . to u guys may sound funny . well . isnt funny at all . brought back to my workplace safe n sound n proceed on to be e cashier for e day . its was abt 6pm when he appeared again . kinda busy with e Q . as soon as i cleared e Q , i clocked out n looked for him . he said to me that i shouldnt rush . but dear . i miss you lots . anyway , not forgetting my yummy delicious yoghurt . had yoghurt as my dinner . we went to e foodcourt . finished it up n went to orchard mrt to rot awhile before he went home n i went back for my work . we tok n tok . he blushed . cute veggiebrainer . his palm is getting alright i supposed . dear , dun be careless again ehs . den a lil hugs before we parted each other . i wanted to give him a kiss but he walked too fast cuz gonna catch e train . awww . missed it . but we will haf a chance in future . xD e moment i left him i miss him . this shows how much i put him in my heart . heh . reached e workplace n concentrate on my work . did 2k today . not much . was in e bus after work talking to him on my phone sweetly . he's so sweet . n he sounded cute . of cuz lahs . my dear mahs . heh . was talking about our jobs n when sch reopens . after awhile i hanged up e phone cuz wanna let him rest as he's working as morning shift e nxt day . heh . i miss him lots . im basking in your love that you gave me , veggiebrainer . i love you .

gees .

2004-12-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

hahaha . MIA for a few days . n im back safe n sound . lotsa things happened . very happy . xD esp. xmas eve . bleahs . so let me recall what happened e past few days . gees .

xmas eve .
met up wif my cousin early afternoon . went town . brought along his birthday n xmas presents . gees . reached orchard went to popular to buy scotch tape . hahahas . den went to taka mac to find momo . kajiao him . budden think he's kinda irritated by me . but its ok . boo . den wrapped up e presents for him . went around after that . packed wif ppl . i hate it very much . den sat down some where to talk to my cousin . and also to wait for him to finish his work . so yeahs . rot . n by 5.45pm was about to meet him . BUT . i forgot to laminate e card for him . so i rushed back to wisma to laminate it . tahdahs ! just nice its 6pm ! n he reached e place where we supposed to meet . gees . he looks great . gave him e presents ! but he doesnt noe how to hide things . he's sweet ! he got me a bouquet of rose that i longed for . awww . yeahs . so we went around . felt so lucky that i got e bouquet of rose . n i dunno why he blushed n i was too . its like whenever i saw him i will blushed . goshs . hees . den went cine to check out e time slot for e movie we wanted to watch . kaos . fully book . if not will be separated seats . dammit . i wouldnt want to watch alone . cries . den forget it . went to ps to check out e time slots too . still e same . den got fed up . so i suggested that we walked frm ps to esplanade . hees . we walked n walked . ended up at raffles shopping centre . den he asked if there's any cinemas around. so yeahs . there is ! at suntec . we went suntec n check out e time slots too . luckily . there is . but its kinds late . who cares . once a yr . so took e 11.10pm time slot . before that was 9+ . so we went to millenia walk to sit down . heh . its sweet . i wont forget e scenery . e things happened . tahdahs ! we sat down n talk . talk till almost time for us to watch movie . went in n he slept awhile . e movie darn nice . kungfu hustle . hahahas . den after e show was like 1am . sent him to e bus stop n waited for my dad . luckily i dint got screwed by him . phew . den went home . took a bath n went into my lala land . xD

xmas day .
woke up early morning at 11am . tts early for me . heh . took a bath n went out to meet him . im late again ! sry . we went rotting again . after rotting i sent him to work . after nxt went to meet my nco fwens . kristen reached first den followed by me . gees . so sweet of kristen . she gave me a lil cutie xmas pressie . den all of them reached off we go to scotts to haf pastamania . we were nuts . den went to paragon too . nuts again . after that went to work . was early . i miss him . work n work . was hoping to see him dropping by . but dint noe he works till 10+ . after work i chiong out to meet him . awww . he got cut on his hand . heartbreaks . x( den we walked to somerset . wanted to send him to e mrt station but he insist to send me to e bus stop . so yeahs . e stupid bus came so darn early . n dere goes . saw yuhli . talked wif her . den was smsing him too . i miss him loads too . heh . called him n reached home still talking to him . heh . he's so cute . e bouquet of rose havent dried up yet . hees . xD

lalalas .

2004-12-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

gonna work few hrs later . boom . ive done most of my xmas shopping . gonna fill in more pressies for my juniors . boo . heh . just got xmas pressie frm my darling regina . bleahs . pig ! yeahs . after band pract went to bishan alone . tot of dropping down to his work place as he's working da first day . guess im not gonna disturb him . im irritating him . duhs . oops . anyway . went to buy a pencilbox frm 37degrees . went round n round j8 . sians . on e mrt he smsed me . i could spent e xmas wif him ! my wishes came true . boo . so happy . am i too obvious ? maybe . sad to say , i dreamt of ben last nyte . i dreamt of him wearing a formal coat . he looks great . but what is past is past . still dun haf any contacts frm him . nahs . it's ok . i dun mind . but i was shocked yea . heh . xD

lalalas .

2004-12-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm . im really stuck up wif da cookies smell . arghs ! x( been working for 4 days ever since band camp . non-stop . arghs . luckily tml off . bcuz of band . seriously . i was kinda unhappy when feroz flood my hp wif smses . whatever qm's stuffs , im handling it . not saying im complaining or what . budden its qm's job . haish . sometime i really feel like going to work instead of band . cuz by working , i can forget all e troubles . back in band , i felt there's a stress coming up . be it facing e conductor , bandmates , fwens , teachers or even majors . i dunno what to do . i enjoy going to band . but i dun like stress . if im unhappy , ppl might mistaken tt im giving ppl attitude . pls lahs . wake up can anot . dun be so childish . x
to whoever tt is 5218 / ... : u will be ignored by me .

w0rk.

2004-12-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

wahahas . ima back in acti0ns again . lalalas . heh . this few days haf been w0rking n0n st0p . esp. this wk . hahahas . ima stink wif c0okies smells . arghss . x( hmmm . s0me0ne said i lo0ks like a bballer . hahahas . am i fierce lo0king ? d0rts . this is what my new staff t0ld me . i was puzzled . -.-" yeah yeah . deprived 0f slp . lalalas . gtg . nth t0 wrtye . h0pe i c0uld spent xmas wif him . duhs . xD

camp !

2004-12-18T12:53:00.000+08:00

weets . just w0ke up n0t l0ng ag0 . g0nna head d0wn t0 w0rk ltr . yawns . xD s0 right n0w ima free t0 update my bl0g . bleahs . band camp`o4 rawkks . xP

i wasnt in da mo0d t0 g0 f0r da camp . as i realised dat i miss my h0me . 0f cuz i did miss s0me0ne badly . heh . w0ke up ultra early n reached dere early . ima da 1st t0 reached . hmmm . i was s0 darn b0red till yuh ting called my name acr0ss da r0ad . yawns . yup . after dat christine came . s0 we were crazzie as usual . i miss my h0me . haish . den fall in . l0ad da bus . set 0ff da j0urney t0 am0y quee . reached dere . cha0s . unl0ad da bus . went t0 da bunks . d0ubt l0tsa ppl dun like da bunks . at first i did . but in da end n0t . xD den put my bags dere n went 0ff f0r da activities . da games were fun . but . accidents happened . my po0r juni0r g0t injured . awww . i st0p all my activities n ran t0 see h0w was him . but thank g0d . he`s alright . i alm0st burst 0ut 0f tears . n ms seah t0ld me t0 g0 back n c0ntinue da activities . i was m0odless thru0ut da day . thanks ppl f0r c0ns0ling me . heh . den pr0cess f0r drills , lunch n dinner . slept quite late n i c0uldnt get t0 slp . cuz regina was hugging me t0 slp . n my st0mach is hungry . ha . w0ke up darn early f0r da next day . fall in . m0rning exercise . ran 800m . stupid f0ol 0f hanliang . he dint t0t dat we g0t t0ns 0f things c0ming up n made da band members tired . ima darn unhappy wif him . nvm . den as usual pr0cess 0n t0 0ur drills , lunch , dinner , fb . mr chew was angry cuz da band members lo0k restless . thanks t0 hanliang f0r da exercise in da m0rning . me n fer0z g0t sc0ldings frm him . haish . water parade was fun th0ugh was late in da night . slept n w0ke up early in da m0rning . drills . i was lucky dat i n0 nid t0 d0 . bleahs . did kit exchange . lalalas . lunch was terrible . dint haf da mo0d t0 eat . den as usual stuffs . dinner was 0k . den at night fb . did rec0rdings . i heard myself cleary 0n da ch0ice piece n set piece . was crazzie . lalala . water parade again n slept . da next day w0ke up veh early . n was da last day 0f camp . prepared stuffs f0r da parade . swiss winds rawkks . ncc rawkks t0o . bleahs . swiss winds s0 strong . n0t even a single s0ul faint but ncc d0es . o0ps . lalala . checj 0ut f0r da camp . cha0s . arghs . den delayed da tym t0 g0 back . lt f0ng rawkks . swiss winds g0nna miss him . i mean i said it 0n behalf 0f da band . lalala . den debrief n went h0me . reached h0me n slept . w0ke up n get ready t0 t0wn . b0ught 4 r0ses . f0r raidah , kristen , mr chew n j0ey . lalalas . met up wif zat , zak n kristen . miss dem t0 bits . hees . den went f0r dinner . head d0wn t0 t0ngs building t0 watch sembwinds perf0rmance . u guys rawkks . heh . den went t0 parag0n t0 wait f0r da sh0rtie tim0 . to0k an hr t0 walk fr0m cine t0 parag0n . arghs . sent kristen t0 da bus stop n went h0me . saw da nc0 camp cd . t0uching . went t0 slp after tt . hees . g0nna end here . tatas .

he`s sick .

2004-12-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

guess i haf made da ch0ice c0rrectly . i w0nt regret tt i haf ended this relati0nship . i find myself stupid when i recalling all da mem0ries . shagua . t0o indulge wif da l0ve tt he had sh0wn f0r mie . but he changed me quite al0t . i still miss him . w0nder h0w is he right n0w . is he asleep ? did he c0ver his blanket ? in da past , i dun w0rry . but n0w ima w0rried . dunn0 why . his bed , his blanket , he pillow is s0 c0mf0rtable . but hugging him is da best 0f all . i cant d0 all this things t0 him anym0re . ima n0t his ger anym0re . n0t anym0re .

tears in my br0ken heart . 29.02.04-11.12.04

w0ke up at 10 . t0ok a bath n prepare my lunch cum dinner . went tuh w0rk . smsed xuansheng . he`s ill . 0h . p0or b0i . w0rk w0rk w0rk . den g0t n0ob . her name is peixia . a sweet n simple ger . den after w0rk rushed d0wn t0 PS t0 get da drink f0r xuansheng , as he`s ill . chi0ng d0wn t0 serang0on fr0m PS . da bus j0urney was scary . was smsing wif leqi . l0ls . den reached dere saw him sitting 0n da bus st0p which i dint t0t 0f it . i was thinking h0w t0 walk t0 his h0use when he`s already dere . s0 yeahs . gave him da drinks . b0ught him 2 b0ttles 0f it . i h0pe he will get better after drinking it . XD

g0ing band camp at am0y quee camp later . haftu wake up at 5am . n0t updating till sat . cheers . XP

i will f0rget him . pr0mise .

br0ke .

2004-12-13T01:52:00.000+08:00

br0ke up wif ben ytd . 10 mths t0 be relati0nship just g0ne d0wn da drain . i n0e its s0oner 0r later cuz all da things he haf d0ne f0r mie sh0ws it all . all da pr0mises g0ne . i t0ld myself n0t tuh cry f0r him anym0re . but all da mem0ries n da pr0mises he left tuh be ish s0 preci0us tuh mie . ever since he 'l0st' c0ntact wif mie . i haf been waiting da 0lvls tuh finished n h0pe tt all da pr0mises dat he haf left f0r mie tuh c0me true . but . its all g0ne . 10 mths of relati0nship u n0e ? jus deleted da smses frm him . shud i be happy 0r shud i be sad . i w0nder . i wr0te da 2nd diary tuh him . but haben give him yet . mebbe i shud give it tuh him tuh let him n0e all my feelings tuh him . i will nvr f0rget dat he tagged 0n my bl0g saying dat he pr0mised mie dat after 0lvls will acc0mpany mie tuh ecp tuh watch sunset . guess i haftu watch al0ne myself . i all al0ne again . i dun want dat . i pr0mised myself again n again dat i w0nt shed an0ther tears f0r him . but . i haf made a empty pr0mise tuh myself . 10 mths tuh be relati0nship ish all g0ne . ima sad . ima angry wif him . but wad can i d0 ? i w0nt c0mmit suicide cuz 0f relati0nships . nvr . th0ugh i t0t bef0re . but i tink its kinda stupid . i miss him . but i dun want him back . he hurt mie 0nce , he hurt mie twice . wats m0re he wants fr0m mie . i stranded in this l0nely island . i hate tuh be al0ne . haish . guess its tyme tuh say gudbye when i dun wanna put it tuh a end . i haf 0nce said tuh myself . ima alive cuz 0f da pr0mises dat he made . 0ur pinkie fingers ? its all g0ne tuh da drain whereby n0b0dy c0uld find it except him .

g0ne in da rain . hurts . x''(

29.02.04-11.12.04

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2004-12-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

just came back .

meet up xuansheng f0r dinner . we had pastamania at t0a pay0h . dint n0e there`s pastamania there as we were dere last wk . as usual had da baked rice . simply delici0us . bleahs . saw his 2 0ther fwens . lalalas . b0ring . after tt ima 0ff tuh mit my dad n br0 at chinat0wn . he wanted tuh sent mie tuh da bus lane but i insist dat he g0es tuh his bus lane tuh wait f0r bus . after i sent him a sms . he came n lo0k f0r mie n awhile ltr ran f0r his bus . tadas . s0 funnie . d0rts . after 1hr , i reached chinat0wn . ima a chinese dat d0enst like tuh g0 tuh chinat0wn . hahahas . dun ask mie why . cuz i 0so dunn0 why . hahahas . gtg . cia0s .